Candle burns quickly

Betraying the shifting of time

It is done but unseen in this moment

It is bigger than expected

So big I feel pulled to it

When it was to be pulled to me

I give up pieces of myself willingly

They are no longer needed

But the discomfort of them leaving

Envelops this moment

It’s a journey planned but unknown

Its outline rough

The details shifting with each passing day

Mind desires to pin it down

Spirit knows better than to try

I reach my hand out to touch it

It is fuzzy and soft

Warm and comforting

But the other side is shielded

It is that side that will have to be tolerated

It is not the whole

Not even half

But it comes with the deal

It is the small print

The unspoken

It won’t last long

But each moment of it filled with demands

It cannot be avoided

It cannot be embraced

It is just what is

Human nature will make its so

I walk alone into this undefined plan

Knowing others will join me there

But I can’t help but hesitate

Wonder

Dream

Of a circle of hands

Walking in together

It’s foolish thinking

Wanting something that is asking too much

But the heart yearns

And the mind follows

Engtovo ~ August 31, 2008

Shiver hits

Races up the spine

Familiar energy

A gift of acknowledgment

Though it is felt

Mood remains unchanged

Melancholy

Searching

Questioning everything

Tears well and recede

There is no subject matter

Just release

Attempted understanding

Neither head nor heart

Offer up information

There is a void

A heaviness

A slow aching pull

To unknown places

Something is being birthed

It labors in my chest

It’s insatiable

Uncomfortable

Confined

Cut the strings

Set it forth

Something good must come of this

A final push of emotion

I feel it

It is uncertain

Wild

Uncontrollable

What am I supposed to do with this

Run toward it

Run away

Be still

I fear no good can come of this

My fear

I know it better than I know myself

It wrote my history

How much longer must it write the future

Engtovo ~ August 31, 2008

Needy

Grasping

Pushing pulling

Confusion of familiarity

Aching

Turning

Sending receiving

Puzzle pieces missing

Heart calls out

No answers looming

Clock keeps ticking

Why can’t it be clear

Control fading

Something looming

Feelings unprepared

Fire burning

Sweet light nearing

Meaning can’t be found

Turmoil inside

Insanity outside

Peace is still not found

Engtovo ~ August 30, 2008

Last week I went out to see what the sunset may look like and as I looked down the road there was some nasty black clouds in the direction of town.

I started to walk up the road in the other direction and got glimpses of the sunset.

I decided to walk to the end of the road so I could see toward town to get an idea of how bad the storm was.  When I got there you could see the lightening bolts and it was really black over there.   You can barely make out broken off point.

I decided to see if I could get a lightening bolt.  I didn’t have a tripod or anything so I put it on 1/20 shutter speed and tried holding it and waiting.  The mosquitoes started to eat me making that a challenge.  We don’t have a lot of mosquitoes but every one in the county must have been right there :-)  I caught one bolt and a couple where the sky was lit up.

Last week it was raining and not so the light out, It was hard to get a pic of him with a slow shutter speed cause he was moving so much.

Another circus rose shot